By the way, I am Patricia May Cruz. An introvert and for that, loves to be in small groups of people. I am stressed out in public and exhausted in crowd. Despite that, she survived debate and half-loved it. She got her highest grade in English in her course, oral communication and is willing to immerse herself more in learning socially.Smiley

Thursday, 19 May 2011

My Rumailah-Al Amal Hospital Day

I walked like two times of PNoval to Lacson under the heat of the sun and amidst the slaps of the sandstorm to reach Al Amal Hospital.

Tito James dropped me by here. This was my first destination at the place. It’s called Female Waiting Area of Outpatients in Rumailah Hospital.

Here is another stock of sand that was carried by the wind.

Here is evidence, piled sand due to sand storm.

This is the third “outpatient female waiting area” that I have been into, subsequent to Al Amal’s outpatient female waiting area. This is located at Rumailah Hospital. Tita Rhain saw me here after telling her that I have passed by yellow balloons and I am near a food chain.

Hello Main Entrance :>

In this picture is the last waiting area that I had stayed at. This is located at the 8th assembly point just at the back of my first destination. I therefore conclude that I had walked 360 degrees of the place. What an exercise! But no, I was weighed and nothing changed. It’s still something to be ashamed of although the nurse said “Oh! That’s the ideal weight.” She wasn’t able to consider the height. Er!

From the time I saw her until the time that I didn’t anymore, I was overly curious if she is a Filipina. The way she walks, the way she clothed herself tells me that she is, but the way she speaks contradicts that. As a non-pro hearer, she is very good in Arabic maybe because of the length of stay here in the Middle East or the effort for the abnormal boy that she takes care of.

Dizziness and the lack of sense of direction made me lose my way to the main entrance. I don’t know what his nationality is but he led me to the main entrance without anything in return. He has nothing to do there, he just, accompanied me. He even ignored other staff that calls out at him. Thank God for such an angel.

While waiting for Tito James.

I have reached the main door! Thank God!

She left her things for a phone call. I hope this could also be done in the Philippines.

She was the one who left her things for a phone call. This is a blur because the IPod caught her attention. Shing!

I was really hungry but I am a needy. I don’t have money allocated for personal expense.


I'm going to bed. Good morning doha. Good night for me.

Red-skinned mammal

For a couple of weeks now, I have been depressed with how my skin turned overly red and full of cracks. Then here is this random man who came from somewhere enrollment for his kids, who would great me and praise me, would then notice my condition and will tell me a word “yuck!” What the F***! 

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Hamad

Health privileges offered for Qatar residents had benefited me now, yesterday actually. I was in Hamad for check-up of what the red circles over my arms and legs are and additional allergies on my chest. So these are what vacation brought me, a lot more skin problems. I remember when I was in grade 6, I started to get rid of my pimples on my face, then I got over it but allergies on my back appeared and now it spread over my arms and legs. Er. :( I can’t help to be sad. I think it’s very disgusting. Subract 1 from confidence, esteem and happiness.

While waiting for my turn.



The doctor asked her if she felt the earth was spinning. He only meant dizziness

nurse who called out my name


First ever successful shot of my mom using my IPod





bubbly momma.

View from my bed


Peek-a-boo!


Blue bracelet. I'm glad it isn't red.

They are Egyptian-Qatari sisters and they are with their Egyptian mom. They removed the curtain that partitioned our cubicles because they needed more space. They thought I am alone but my mom was just sitting near. Their mother does not speak English and I don’t speak Arabic. We dealt with hand signals and lots of descriptions for a single word such as, insect – a black thing that crawls out of the bed when it is dark, which multiplies daily, crawl – (hand signals of pointer and middle finger walking). I enjoyed talking to them even if it took us minutes to understand a certain phrase. The daughters could speak the language but I’m not quite sure if it is the shallowness of vocabulary or the different pronunciation that prolonged the mutual understanding. Thank you for the triangular peanuts :> 






Wednesday, 18 May 2011

Taylor Swift Back to December


I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time


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So tell me why am I in tears?

Depressing Sickness

What the hell happened? 
I can't tell you what it really is. I can only tell you what it feels like.
Seeing them succeed.

Tuesday, 17 May 2011

Wittyprofiles.com

You may not be her first, her last, or her only.
                             She loved before she may love again.
                      But if she loves you now, what else matters?
                                She's not perfect, you aren't either,

                and the two of you may never be perfect together
        but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice,
                 and admit to being human and making mistakes, 

                   hold onto her and give her the most you can.
                           She may not be thinking about you
          every second of the day, but she will give you a part of

                       her that she knows you can break her heart.
                  So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze  

                           and don't expect more than she can give.
                             Smile when she maked you happy, 
                    let her know when she makes you mad,

                        and miss her when she's not there. 
                                                                    
 -Bob Marley

Fits

This is the proper time to accept that everything now is taken for granted. It wouldn’t be like how you had each other with your first 3 months. Just accept that he isn’t that suitor that will suit himself with you anymore. 

Paradox

It’s really ironic. The trust versus the questions is incomprehensible. I can’t seem to see what’s real now. 

Rush for English

Hit by a dagger of loneliness,
Never thought of one's caress
Cut by the wrath of darkness
Marked by many as useless

Not until the gun was untriggered
And the glasses clattered
The soul that had been shattered
Turned not to be mattered

Explosions of light woke me
From a dream that deprived me of bounty
Now i find myself delightly
In a place that I'll handle gently

Retina

They dropped something in my eyes thrice which made me feel dizzy. The Filipina said that it is to enlarge the  retina.












katabi kong masama tumingin

Tea/Coffee

Magrabi clinic offers tea or coffee to waiting patients.





















When one of the nurses asked to another if she has a "Gonzales" patient. How I wish it was me.
nurses

Real Gonzaleses


It Is Easy To Miss Something You're Not Looking For

Monday, 16 May 2011

QP Health Service

I am about to go and found out that I have no key for our gate. So, all the fast tracks were senseless because I couldn't get out. Thanks to Tito James, he accommodated the driver. When I saw them at the living room, I was really shocked; I don't know if I should talk to them, because I could not recognize them both due to poor eyesight.


Upon arriving Qatar Petroleum Health Service, I searched for the laboratory, where my mom is. Astigmatism made my head spin so I decided to sit down for a while. I decided to walk again and when I turned my head, the sign said "Male waiting area." I headed straight, as if I didn't commit any mistake. No one let me stand anyway.

My mom introduced me to the blood lady, Tita Loise. She's a nurse there. She got blood from my mom.

We went up to see a dentist, hoping he/she could stick my falling brackets but he/she didn't.


I went out early for nothing.


Due to extreme hunger, my mom and I let the driver to pass by Marrybrown to buy food. I ate on the way home.
numbers
hallway where I lost

doctor for hearing
One of the many receptions

allowed me for eye test but not for ophta
My mom was inside and some kabayans on the other room let me sit on there office. :) Filipino Hospitality.
The hearing test was so cool. Headphones and raising of hands. HAHA! Btw, everyone was asking if  I am a daughter of my mom :)

Thought they are Filipinos but not.
Qp internet section
Waiting for our number

metal keyboard. The "mouse" I find it cool. It is like a hand massager. :P
Violet floor is weird.


Doctor who told my mom to lessen her weight needs to do the same. HAHA. She told me that her daughters were  lazier than me coz none of hers will come along with her at that early.

My mom bought food here for her, me, my sister and the driver. I remember last april 27, 2010. We three were still happy, once again. 

Trust

It’s a deadly thing when someone important does not treat you really well. The insanity of refute and the questions that are more than that of a convicted crime. In those eyes, you’ll never be good enough, you’ll always lack something and you’ll have no idea how to fill that space. 

Sunday, 15 May 2011

Pilot Handwriting

Keyboard

Whenever I play the piano then type on my laptop keyboard afterwards, I notice that my fingers go faster. Maybe it is psychological, but it’s just, nothing. I have no idea with what I’m saying. Ha-ha. Just mind pops before I take a bath.

Accounting

I just feel like putting some background of me on my background. The image is very much related to my daily life starting June, Accounting’s wrath. Ha-ha! I laughed when I noticed that it is more on losses than profits and I wonder how long this company could maintain its going concern basis. Bla bla bla. 

Sam Tsui Singing King Of Anything by Sara Bareilles


He's just so cute and talented.

Saturday, 14 May 2011

Ipod and Calculus


Whenever I play a game that slices jumping fruits, Fruit Ninja and Cherry in particular, I remember one calculus day. Ms. Macapagal caught me and Bianca playing my IPod in the middle of discussion. Attempting to clean our names, we had taken so many notes and paid our full attention for the rest of the discussion. I pressured myself to have higher grade for that topic too. Haha! I shared this experience to a friend and he just laughed at me and told me that at his school, that doesn't matter. The professor wouldn't care. Well, I want that school badly because for me, professor's voices are the greatest lullabies.


Life as We Know It

I just finished watching “Life as We Know It.”  Sophie’s parents died, so the best friends took over. They basically left their personal lives to be parents for her. Sweet.

Friday, 13 May 2011

Melody

I want to play the piano. I guess the melody that it produces is one of the best stress-relievers in the world, second to hug, I think. Ok, I really miss him, and his hug, it wipes away all the pain. So I jumped off from one topic to another, let me go back to playing. I just can’t because everyone is asleep. How I wish I could have a private room to unwind. Being with my family is really stressful.

Friday the 13th

Listening to a person who doesn’t even know how to do the same and just do all the talking, is just really hard to be with. I hate how I can’t freely express myself when I most need it. I hate this fucking day. 

Aleph: publication dates « Paulo Coelho's Blog

Aleph: publication dates « Paulo Coelho's Blog

Tuesday, 10 May 2011

YouTube - Keep Holding On

YouTube - Keep Holding On

YouTube - Bruno Mars ft. Claude Girl I Wait [HD]

YouTube - Bruno Mars ft. Claude Girl I Wait [HD]

Chords vs Notes

The playing of chords as prayer background sounds unpleasant. Inability to move fingers from one key to another, having a letter as a guide, just can’t suit me. That leads me learning Yiruma’s “Maybe” but my mom reacted that it can’t be played for prayer. That’s depressing. HAHA. Anyway, the study continues. Choosing another song will be a total hassle. Good luck for me.

Monday, 9 May 2011

Great!

It's really nice being here.

Print Screen

benta lang.
Kung kelan binlog, dun nawala. Wala na ulit pasensya ko.

Strange


It started yesterday. I am having this “different” feeling towards him. I can’t understand. There’s this sort of an arrow of goodness that stroked me. Yesterday was the first time to have my patience stretched for very long. I was not annoyed, really. I don’t remember having this mood before. Oh well, by the way, I’m kind of thankful for not being pissed but I also consider the immunity of receiving that messages every day with more than 27 repetitions. I really hate “DONT’S” messages, treating me like a kid having no learning experiences in the past, but I managed to handle it for the last 48 hours. Wherever this virtue came from, please grant this forever. I hope I had deposited enough principal to make interest enough for such Perpetuity.

Sunday, 8 May 2011

Personality Test

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

  1. You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
  2. You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
  3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
  4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
  5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

This man is a sporty type. He has a strong heart and easily comes to terms with the truth. He likes sport and physical challenges, and quickly gets bored with routine. As for women, he gets bored if they are too formal and proper. You need to be enthusiastic and ready to be spontaneous as the occasion requires it. He enjoys activities such as bush walking or rock climbing, so to keep the relationship running smoothly you should give them a go.


Your relationship is moving forward. Just don't trip over.

You and him would be typical young lovers. It would not be all sweet and romantic if you got together, sometimes you would argue or get confused, but those elements would only make your relationship more exciting. At the moment you are probably assuming that he likes you, but sometimes you might not be so sure. Don't worry, you can be sure that he also feels the same way. When both of you sense special feeling towards each other, your relationship is certainly growing. What you should do is try to express your feelings a little more and learn more about him.

You are a well-mannered person who does not wish to invade other people's private lives. You are able to decide what topics are appropriate to talk about with people and what's not. You are confident in your ability to not offend.


You are interested in the opposite sex. Though you have already got a guy you like, you still date with other guys. Is that right?


You often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.



How you control your husband, who will lead the family and who will be led?
You tend to adopt traditional roles of a fine woman. You listen to what your husband tell you attentively and enjoy being guided and led by him.


A map and a compass are a sign of seriousness. However, you often forget the time and place for your appointment with friends which bores them right? So, don't mix up your schedule and recheck it in order to follow the schedule correctly.



How will you choose your Mr Right?
You will make the most of being able to shop around for Mr Right. You love your freedom and will have a lot of fun learning about what sort of man you like. When you do find the guy for you, nobody will be able to keep you away from the church.
Who will be your future Mr Right?
Your future hubby will be lovely and sweet, but a little immature - possibly even a spoilt brat! This guy will trigger your maternal instinct. You'll always be willing to watch his back and clean up his mess. He might be the same age as you are or even younger.
When will you get married?
As soon as you fall in love, you'll want to grab your man and hang on to him. You will probably marry very young, so it would be wise of you to think carefully before committing.
What sort of wife will you be?
You are a bit tricky. You might pretend to be a sensitive and caring wife in his eyes, but you'll be ready to laugh at him behind his back and eventually you may even leave him for another man.
Will you and your husband have a good time together?
You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won't end up quite as healthy, but you'll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends.
What will your children be like?
Your kids will be quiet and won't give you a hard time - they'll be a joy to have around. However, you should teach them to be stronger and more confident in themselves. Otherwise they might grow up to be losers.
How loyal are you?
You get along very well with most guys. Sometimes your friendliness misleads others to think that you're a bit of a flirt, but actually you've got a loyal heart. You'll never have eyes for anyone except your beloved husband.

You are more concerned with yourself rather than with others. Superficially, you are a quiet and imaginative person. As you choose to sit at the back, you can converse with your friends although you do not talk a lot.

You are patient and will take good care of your husband and children. Mind you, do not marry a gambler or your life will be totally miserable.

You are a big fan of Urban Legends. You like reading rumors in magazines and tabloids. You are determined to succeed in your study and career.

You are considerate so they will only get your smile as a reply.



The Mass Communicator

You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.



Saturday, 7 May 2011

Napapagod na ko mag Thank You. :)

Birthday Eve

My parents bought me amazing clothes and a new designed rubber shoes. They just told me to fix myself and we’ll go elsewhere. I didn’t really expect that they’ll spend on me for some things. They did, anyway. I guess today is the most cash-outflow day for them. They had bought me stuffs without minding the prices. I do not really know how to thank them because I am not used to vocal expression of feelings with them. So help me God.

Happy 18th Birthday to me :>